BEX
I been
listening to this on repeat for a few and I am not sure why. Rebecca just gives
me a wicked smirk as I hit repeat though. lol
(Hozier: Arsonist's Lullaby)
SIGYN
Well,
she did set her old professor's house and her apartment on fire lol
BEX
no... I don't think it's cause of that. She says, it gives her ideas...for Trent.
*blinks and blushes*
Ohhhhh!
TRENT:
you want
to burn me?
REBECCA:
No silly....
but I know you wouldn't turn down a strip tease...would you?
TRENT:
I'm okay
with either 😉
REBECCA:
You are
so silly.
TRENT:
you
should have invited me to the party bus 😥 I heard you did a pole dance that no
one appreciated because your friends were terrible back then
REBECCA:
I am
sorry...I was so out of my mind at that point. And they were, but then I did it
for the wrong reasons.
She
blushed deeply.
TRENT:
Who
hasn't gotten up and stripped for their friends for dumb reasons?
Mansk
"Alot of people actually.... "
ORION
Clearly, they're missing out.
Mansk
"Hardly"
BLAINE
Yes, hardly.
NATE:
I know I
have but that's not really a common thing
REBECCA:
Ummmm....no
one that I can remember...and I didn't strip. That's just for YOU.
*Looks
at Nate*
Say what
now?
NATE:
White
Josh and I may have ...done a dirty dance onstage at a gay bar... with Josh
Chan
REBECCA blinks
And you
guys give ME hell for pole dancing.
NATE:
I am
giving no hell. and it was at a place you're expected to dance like that
REBECCA:
Not you...Josh Chan and the rest of them.
*Rolls her eyes but smirks*
Really?
Maybe we could all go sometime. Bet Cat and George would LOVE it.
*giggles*
NATE:
George,
for sure, because it was a gay bar.
TRENT snickers
Z-Dog
"Oh baby! I love me a gay bar! Let me
get my strap on and call me daddy!!!"
Lyle
"Mmm you.... Yeah.. But Cat?"
BEX watches the reference video, Has no idea what she just watched
TRENT:
cringe
NATE:
did you
just say the word "cringe" without actually cringing?
TRENT:
that was
cringe. You just watched cringe.
REBECCA:
Yea...that's
the word for it.
NATE:
I was
the hottest guy in that song 😊
TRENT:
... a
pampered domestic kitten is cuter than two wild trash pandas, yes.
REBECCA snickers
TRENT:
the bar
for hot guys in that song was pretty low.
REBECCA:
I agree!
TRENT:
in the Trent is Getting Ready Song, 100% of
the men in that song were hot. In Fit Hot Guys, 33.3% of the men in that song
were hot.
NATE:
that's
not—
REBECCA laughed and shook her head. Smiling
He got
you there, Nate.
She
winked at Trent and stood.
Anyone
hungry, thirsty? I am!
She
headed to the kitchen, humming to herself.
TRENT follows her and puts in a bagel & goat cheese
NATE:
I'll just get a Slim Fast
TRENT:
nope.
NATE:
...fine,
roasted vegetables.
REBECCA:
What else Nate? (She called out, looking for the pan she needed. Men....so picky.)
You need
to eat more and veggies, while good don't have the substance.
She
smiled up at Trent and kissed him
Have I
told you that I love you, yet today?
*giggles*
NATE:
wtf vegetables are the perfect food
TRENT:
I'll make him a bagel too.
NATE:
NOOOOOOOOO
LOPEZ
"Slim fast is trash first of all.
There's far better options. That however .. besides the point. Neither of them
are respecting he's on a diet of some kind? How do you go from as healthy as
you can get to a wad of bread which is more or less just carbs. Bagel or
not.... What kind of bagel are you making him? That's another question. Also,
no, you should having way better protein shakes and some vegetables or fruits
for breakfast. Not slim fast and a carrot. Especially if you do any kind of
work outs throughout the day. I get there worry.... I do.... You sound
borderline idiotic but instead of forcing their worry on you with Bagels there
was way better alternatives. Shake, fruits and or veggies, that actually would
have been .... I hate slim fast but you wouldn't have died. Anyway scrap that
shake it's fucking disgusting.... You lot couldn't have made this idiot veggies
and chicken? What's wrong with you? FISH! Are you all retarded as well as nosey?
By no means am I saying the blonde himbo sounds smart talking about veggies and
slim fast but none of you were any better and by the end of it you were just
being obnoxious, nosey, and forceful. He's a grown fucking man. He can eat sand
if he wants to"
PENRYN
His eating disorder is somewhat of a plot
point in the main fic, but you're right that everyone involved is being
completely fucking stupid about this.
Lyle
"This is why he's my medic. Please don't
be stupid.... But in that note go fuck yourself if you want to!" 🤣
Lopez
"Which you fucking do all the damn
time... and ya.. Mental disorder is also another thing. No, no, do this now....
Is not how that's handled tho"
Lyle
"My dick still hurts..."
"Jesus Christ...." Lopez eye rolling.
BLAINE
I'm sorry, what does his dick have to do
with anything?
Lopez
"if you don't know...don't
ask..."
AKUMA
I'm sorry, did my glass vagina hurt you
when you were fucking me in my SLEEP?
Lyle
"What!!! How'd I take that and not
electricity!!??"
Miles
"OKAY PLEASE..... Don't make me shove
mine down your throat to shut you up knuckle head!!"
Lyle eyebrow waggling.
POST-EDIT RENA
Don't threaten him with a good time 😉
Z-Dog
"You all have ADHD.... ANYWAY"
TRENT, to Rebecca
💖💖💖💖😘😘😘😘
REBECCA gets out a small portion of grilled chicken and sets that to cook, since she was hungry. Smiles up at Trent and winks
He is helpless, I swear. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
TRENT:
It's
just body image issues. I hope you don't mind me saying, but he's perfect; he
doesn't need to diet as hard as he does
REBECCA:
I don't
mind, and in another world, I would have to agree with you but...I think you
are perfect.
She
finished the chicken and cut it in half and plated it with the cooked veggies
and went to set it in front of Nate.
Eat.
NATE:
. . .
Thank you.
TRENT, ❤
️ Thank you so much, I am. But seriously, Nathaniel, the reason I have a stronger body than you is because I fuel up more.
REBECCA:
yea...what
he said.
She sat
down and began to eat.
Seriously
though, the way you work out, it is lucky you haven't died yet. And that would
be a tragedy. Honestly
Lopez
"Welp... my other point proven"
NATE:
... I am
pretty hungry.
*Eats
food*
Lopez
"Wow, hunger! What a novel concept! Ok
I'm done...."
TRENT:
We can both lift you easily, but ...well. I've
never had an "accident" after drinking a homemade kale smoothie.
REBECCA nearly choked on her food as she tried not to laugh
NATE:
THANKS.
REBECCA finished up her food and went to clean up
You guys
got to get some new stories...
NATE:
I don't
know, I think "I watched Brokeback Mountain in bed with my friend and our
girlfriends assumed we were cheating" is a pretty funny story
LYLE
"Funny STORY!"
TRENT:
well, we
did just finish showering and were in only our underpants
REBECCA paused and looked at Nate with a look...
Really?
You want to go THERE? Let's not, shall we...
NATE:
it's not
like we kissed. Again.
REBECCA:
wait...when
you say you finished showering...?
TRENT:
I need a
shower buddy to keep me from drowning, he needs one to keep him from passing
out
REBECCA:
No...
Nate only needs one when he doesn't eat and passes out. He knows what he has to
do.
She
shook her head.
I know
your reason...but Nates is NOT justifiable.
CIN
Disordered eating is "not
justifiable".
SERLEINA
YOU WOULD KNOW, FATASS!
Lopez
"Are you mother fucking serious!!??
Pinche puta needs to fuck off with this HORSESHIT!!!!"
Z-Dog
"Understatement...... How is an
extreme anxiety disorder and an eating disorder comparable like that at all?
They're both terrible and to some uncontrollable"
PRAGER
"I hate her..."
PENRYN
Also, yes to keep beating a dead horse, but
REBECCA BUNCH from Crazy Ex-Girlfriend would NEVER tell someone that their mental
illness “wasn’t justifiable”. That's not to say she wouldn't invalidate the hell
out of them in other ways, but as much of a bitch as she was to Trent, Darryl,
Karen, anyone mentally ill who wasn't her, she would still never say "Your
disorder isn't justifiable."
TRENT:
it was
my idea, actually... because he's passed out twice and scared the hell out of
me 😥
REBECCA bit her lip and tried not to let her emotions get ahold of her.
NATE:
Before
you get mad, there was no touching involved. and I tried to tell him, I did eat
this time. He just wanted to make sure I was safe.
REBECCA looked back and forth at them, not at all sure what she thought
This is....
weird...for me....
TRENT:
Okay.
Then George can be Nathaniel's shower buddy from now on, and when you're not
around, I'll just wait 🥰
Now REBECCA was all kinds of confused. that was what she wanted, yes? Why then did she feel so weird? About all of this?
Z-Dog
"I'd guess it was this thing called
guilt but.... Narcissists don't know what that is"
PENRYN
She's not even supposed to be a narcissist!
She's a bloody fucking BORDERLINE!
Z-Dog
"Yet... Here we are"
CYGNET
I mean, we know some narcissists who are
also borderline, and Rebecca did have her narcissistic moments in canon. Quite
a few, actually.
PENRYN
THIS IS STILL OUT-OF-CHARACTER AND I HATE
IT!
REBECCA smiles faintly up at her Beloved and takes a bit of toast
Thanks
babe.
She
still wasn't sure how she felt, but this was good.
NATE watches Trent chatter easily & wonders how anyone can be so free and uncomplicated as the Maddock siblings
TRENT, quietly to Rebecca
is
everything okay? Do you want to talk about this?
REBECCA looks up at Trent and shakes her head slightly
It's
alright, Love. We see things in different ways...I am not sure I can say
anything that would not be.... well...I am not sure what to say exactly...
Z-Dog
"Let's make this about ME!!!!"
TRENT:
Let's start with what's on your mind, sweetie
NATE:
Hey,
like I said, I'm not trying to "steal" your man....
(Under his breath) just maybe borrow him once
in a while.
TRENT:
Nope.
REBECCA looked over at Nate and cut her eyes, before calming her expression and looking up at Trent.
So many
things are on my mind, Love. I can't focus on just one.
TRENT:
Hmm...
Well, we can talk about all of them. I like getting to understand you better.
REBECCA internally winced at that, as she wasn't sure his outlook on things and hers, matched up. Which wasn't exactly bad.... just… she didn't want to seem like a green-eyed monster or something weird like that.
BEX
poor
Rebecca though...she wants to talk, but isn't sure how to make Trent or Nate
understand her state of mind as far as some things go
SIGYN
Trent
probably would understand her better than Nate, because Nate's singular focus
is that he wants his forbidden fruit. He's not nearly as excited to sleep with
Trent in the AU
TRENT:
um, nice.
REBECCA:
I know
that you are friends and I get that and don’t want to...interfere… with
that...no that's not the right word.
TRENT listens, with a gentle hand on her shoulder
REBECCA:
I'm just
not used to...whatever it is you two are doing. Male on male affection. I think
the part that messes with my mind the most is I KNOW you two love each
other...and in a small way, it drives me insane...
*Sighs
softly and looks away, feeling slightly ashamed*
wasn't I
enough...?
It came
out whisper soft. So soft that she knew she probably shouldn't have asked it,
but it had been bubbling inside of her for days.
I'm
sorry.... I just don’t...understand is all.... but I'm trying. Honest, I am.
Miles
"No, you're actually first rate
trash"
CIN
She's so fucking whiny and dramatic about
this!
Lyle
"I imagine this as if I had two super-hot
babes into me.... That also fuck each other. Why the fuck would I fucking complain??!!
Seriously!!"
CYGNET
RIGHT?!
Lopez
"That is super special.... But she's
also trying to play it off a bit homophobic when in reality it's literally just
her own insecurities and bullshit"
Lyle
"Yeah, I was gonna say. The whole....
Two MEN oh my gawd was a bit fucking much"
"Well I mean, sometimes the trash
won't just take themselves out unfortunately" Miles in conclusion.
PENRYN
Canon Rebecca was into the idea of two men! She watched gay porn for HOURS at a time! She had trouble choosing between Josh and Greg at one point and decided she'd like to be with BOTH of them, and I'm sure she fantasized about them together! This is just so fucking horribly OOC; this makes me feel SORRY for Canon Rebecca to see how horribly she's being butchered.
TRENT:
Honey,
of course you're enough! You're a goddess! You've brought hope and light back
into my life.
NATE:
...
Rebecca, you're a lot. And I mean that in a good way. It's not just that we
both love each other - we also both love you.
REBECCA looked back at them both and turned her attention more on Nate for the moment.
that's
just it...I'm still mad at you deep inside and I'm mad at myself for still
being mad. You apologized.... why can't I let it go...?
She looked
down and blinked tears out of her vision. Great! Why was she upset now!?
NATE:
to be
fair, I was being a dick
REBECCA:
it's not just that... (she said softly. Still
not looking at anyone)
if...if
you hadn't raised your hand to me...if I hadn't pushed you...would this even be
happening right now?
She hid
a sniff
I don't
know...I had a hand in this, it's partially my fault...
She
trails off and clams up.
NATE:
Oh.
TRENT:
... It's not your fault, Rebekitty.
REBECCA:
yea...you
see? It all happened...all of this because we got into a fight and Trent
thought he had to protect me and take his power back from you. If we hadn't and
had just left like I knew we should have...tell me...would any of this be
happening?
She looked
at Nate and she DID care for him, but it was Trent she loved.
it is my fault...because as soon as Paula
opened her mouth, I should have followed you out. Instead...I pushed Nate into
a confrontation...and now I am more confused than ever...
Lyle
"So that's how it happened..... Hey
Mansk, how you feeling over there buddy? Any type of way?"
Mansk
"Nope, Trent’s twisted"
Lyle
"Oh, good!! Tell Gabby I said to choke
on a dick"
Mansk
"No....."
TRENT:
... Oh, dear... No, it isn't your fault. I did
realize I liked Nathaniel after seeing how he looked at me when I was licking
blood off his face, but I think I would have come to think he was cute either
way.
NATE:
And the
fact that he has snuff fantasies about me is incredibly fucked up, but it's
also kind of hot.
TRENT:
It's
true that I might not have lost my mind and asked you for a threesome with him
in the middle of sex, but there is a chance I would have asked you eventually.
NATE:
you WHAT?!
Jesus. No wonder she hates me so much still
That wasn't exactly the answer REBECCA had wanted to hear, but she understood...sort of. she was all kinds of messed up inside and she didn’t know how this would end.
REBECCA
I--I
need a moment...excuse me.
She
stood and made beeline straight for the bathroom, where she shut and locked the
door, without realizing she did so. Everything was so hazy...her insides were
burning...she couldn't breathe! What was happening? Her thoughts all a mess,
she sunk to the floor and places her head on her knees, hands over her head and
ears, eyes squeezed shut as she tried to block everything out. She was
fine...she was fine.... they were all fine...she loved Trent...he loved
her...but he also loved Nate and Nate loved her...but she wasn’t sure how she
felt about Nate yet when in some deep level she knew she had feelings for him
too! All was confusing, pain, dark, light, sweet, damning, saving! She screamed
loudly in an attempt to drown out her thoughts! It was all too much at one
time...having built up for days, finally vented. Too much...and all she could
do was scream! Scream till she damn near went hoarse!
PENRYN
Lyle
"On that note, Snitches get
stitches!"
Mansk
"And bitches end up in ditches"
Miles
"LADIES!"
CIN
I couldn’t agree more, boys.
Miles
"ISN'T THAT EXCITING!!"
Z-Dog
"She probably sounded like someone
falling to their death actually"
Lopez
"Pity it wasn't true"
CIN
Like I said, whiny and dramatic.
NATE:
Is she
okay?!
PENRYN
Miles
"And a straitjacket"
Lopez
"Crazy, I was crazy once"
CIN
Ooh, ooh! Crazy, I was crazy once! They
locked me in a padded room. I loved it there. I hated it there. I died there.
They buried me in the ground. They planted a flower on me. One of the roots
grew up and one of the roots grew down. It tickled my nose. It drove me crazy.
Crazy? I was crazy once!
CYGNET
And yet I’m the one who was actually
committed.
CIN
Yeah, but I’m the one Piffy taught that to!
PRAGER
"I was in a room, a rubber room, with rats! Rubber rats!!!"
CIN
Ooh! ”Rats! RATS! RATS! THOUSANDS!
MILLIONS OF THEM! ALL THESE WILL I GIVE TO YOU, IF YOU WILL OBEY ME!” (in a
pitch-perfect imitation of 1931 Renfield)
TRENT:
I think she's having a panic attack, but let's
just let her get it out of her system. I'll have some drinkable yogurt
delivered.
It wouldn't end! Didn’t end! Why was no help coming? Reality was fading....and the worst sound of all other than REBECCA'S screams...was the silence.
SERLEINA
HELLO DARKNESS MY OLD FRIEND!
TRENT knocks on the door
Sweetie?
REBECCA sat there, unmoving. Unhearing. Her hands tight over her ears and her eyes squeezed shut. Her breathing slow. Drifting. All was silent now...and that scared her.
SERLEINA
OH NO! THE SILENCE! IT BURRRRNNNNSSSS! I
CAN'T STAND MY OWN COMPANY AND THE THOUGHTS SWIRLING ROUND MY HEAD!!! I NEED
NOISE TO DROWN IT OUT! BRING THE NOOOIIIIIIISE! RAAAUUUUGGGGHHHH
AKUMA
That explains a lot. Also, OH NO! IT’S
SILENT AS THE GRAVE! DOES NOBODY CARE THAT I’M HERE?! THAT I’M
SUFFERING? PITY MEEEEEEEEEEE, WUUUUHHHHHHH
CIN
I’ll say it again: What a whiny fucking BITCH!
PENRYN
Especially after making such a production over how “Nathaniel just
passed out FOR ATTENTION! Nathaniel just does drugs FOR ATTENTION! Nathaniel
has an eating disorder FOR ATTENTION! All Nathaniel’s symptoms are FOR
ATTENTION!”
SYKES
Dude for reals.....
PENRYN
What the FUCKING FUCK IS THIS SHIT THEN
SYKES
Everything she does is to get attention.
With every character
PENRYN
She's such a fucking hypocrite
TRENT kicks the door in and kneels in front of her
Hey...
REBECCA, not realizing it was Trent, she shakes her head and refuses to move.
Uh-uh...!
She
shivers, her eyes still firmly closed.
Lopez
"Crazy! I was crazy once!!!!"
Prager
"I was in a ROOM!!"
Lopez
"A rubber ROOM!!!"
Prager
"With RATS!!!"
Lopez
"RUBBER RATS!!"
TRENT:
Rebekitty?
REBECCA:
I'm not here! (she said stubbornly.)
Her
breathing slowed down though but her trembles still shook her small frame.
PENRYN
A. That makes no sense, and
B. She doesn't have a particularly small frame. She's a size 12 or 14 US; that's average.
Lopez
"Crazy.... I was crazy once...."
Miles
"Ok I think everyone gets it!!"
Lopez
"I mean, no more repetitive then she's
being. I'm half expecting her to start rocking and mumbling it"
REBECCA
why is
it so bloody dark! (she all but whimpered out)
TRENT stands and gently holds her
Your
eyes are closed, sweetie
Feeling his arms go around her, REBECCA settles some. His embrace is safe. His scent is known. It relaxes her but a little. Slowly, she hesitantly opens her eyes and is blinded by how bright it is. But she knows him...would know him, even if she were blind.
REBECCA
Trent?
Her voice soft.
I'm...I'm sorry...
TRENT, soothingly
It's okay. You're okay. I know you're
processing a lot right now.
REBECCA:
No but I
really AM sorry babe.
She
sighed and cuddled against him.
tell Nate for me.... please? (she whispered.)
She didn’t want him to feel badly about
this either.
TRENT:
Okay. Do
you want to go back out and cuddle? I can send him away if...
REBECCA nodded faintly to the cuddling part but sniffed slightly
you
don't have to send him away...he wouldn't understand...don’t want...to make
him...feel bad. (she said brokenly as she was suddenly so tired)
TRENT picks her up and carries her out to the bedroom and gently sets her down and snuggles with her
NATE:
Everything
ok?
Lopez
"Pssst Nathaniel.... I have a
secret.... She's crazy"
PENRYN
And the way she’s BEING crazy isn’t even
canonically accurate!
CYGNET
Real talk, at this point, they should just
call 911 and bounce. I normally wouldn't advocate calling the police on someone
having a mental health breakdown, but again, this is so BLATANTLY just out of
spite and to get all of Trent's attention on her. It feels like she's competing
with Nathaniel to see who can be the sickest.
TRENT:
Yes,
she's just tired. While we're in this part of town, you and George and Cat
should check out the boat rides.
NATE:
Gotcha.
*Goes
off to find George and Cat to go on the love boat*
REBECCA:
bye...
(she says softly as she watches Nate leave. Turning to snuggle more into
Trent's embrace.)
I love you, Trenty Bear... (she says softly, looking up at him as her eyes flutter slightly.)
It’s obvious she’s fighting to stay awake. Long day on top of too
many emotions...tired.
TRENT snuggles her and goes nap-nap
goodnight
my love
Z-Dog
"And we'll see you next time on IT'S
ALL ABOUT ME NOT YOU!!!"
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