SIGYN, 8:48 a.m.
Hiiii 😃
NATE
Hey Xander? How come you'll sleep with
Sebastian and Trent but not with me?
TRENT
omg really? You've slept with every
other man here besides Xander and Hoofs McKenzie.
NATE shrugs
FAUSTUS
...and me.
TRENT
You're not a man, you're a Maus.
(9:56 a.m.) NATE stretches and rolls over into George 🥰
SIGYN
(11:17 a.m.) [snip baby video]
(12:29 p.m.)
[4-minute video chat ending at 12:33
p.m.]
FAUSTUS
bold words from the man who has slept with everyone here aside from my DL.
TRENT
Not everyone. Just the men.
NATE nips George's ear
XANDER looks over at Nate and his eyes furrow slightly
Because I am not all that interested in you, no offence. Bash is because he is my Bonded and I genuinely care for him. Trent...started out as a challenge and it was just fun...but..he is growing on me.
*smirks*
GEORGE chuckles and hugs Nate tight and
kisses him silly
NATE
Oh, okay.
*Kisses George back, smiling*
Hey, love
TRENT cuddles up with Rebecca
GEORGE
Hello handsome. How are you today?
*snuggles*
REBECCA smiles and cuddling with her beloved
Morning handsome.
*kisses him*
NATE
Eh. I'm better now that you're here 🥰 Apparently these two
*motions to Sebastian*
are thinking about getting a divorce.
SEBASTIAN
There's nothing contentious. He
just thinks I don't need him anymore.
TRENT nuzzles her
We just saw a pickup
truck that said BLACKWOOD across the back, so that's funny too.
REBECCA
Wait..what?
*sits up and looks at Bash*
What's going on?
LUCIFER
He doesn't. He has Xander when his
admin is here and Trent when she isn't.
XANDER sputters at hearing his name being called on this
But--but you are his husband! I would never seek to take that
title away from you or take your place, no matter how much I love Bash.
LUCIFER
It's all right. The deal was that
I'd be with him until he no longer needed me. At the time I assumed it would be
until Trent accepted him. Now he has Trent and you.
SEBASTIAN
But I don't want to get divorced.
Is this because of Blackwood?
FREYA looks up
Yea, shouldn't let that
derail you either....
XANDER
But...Bash doesn't handle rejection
well and you know this....and I know he loves you still.
SEBASTIAN
I mean, I get it... Your best
friend hates me, surely that's not easy--
LUCIFER
Mazikeen is my best friend.
CAT
what are we missing? Whose best friend
hates Bash?
SEBASTIAN
... Maze, still? Not Blackwood?
MAZE scoffs
LUCIFER
No. He's a good friend, certainly,
but that's all.
SEBASTIAN
Is a divorce really what you
want? 🥺
LUCIFER
Isn't it what you want?
SEBASTIAN
NO!
LUCIFER
Oh. Well. That's a relief.
REBECCA looking back and forth
I am so
confused...
CAT snickers
SEBASTIAN
Yeah, so am I!
*curls up in Luci's lap and gestures for
Xander to join them*
REBECCA
Perhaps you two should spend some
time together and actually talk about this. There has to be a reason why Luci
thinks you don't need him anymore...
1:00 p.m.
XANDER goes and kisses Bash's forehead and smiles faintly, before moving back to his seat
I concurr with Rebecca...you
two, together, need to talk this out. Without me... but I am still here...so
don't worry.
SEBASTIAN
....
CAT
It's not a bad thing. Just Luci might
be feeling a little left out to suggest such a thing. Not saying he does....but
still....you guys go talk
SEBASTIAN turns his back on the group and curls himself up tighter in Luci's lap
I've said all I need to say. I don't
want a divorce. I don't want to leave you.
GEORGE
I mean...valid. but
still...underlaying issues if Luci suggested it. (says softly)
TRENT
Speaking of which, Rebecca, are you
happy?
REBECCA looks up at Trent
Yes, I
am....why?
LUCIFER
I suggested it because I thought I
might be extraneous. It was always going to be up to you, my love.
SEBASTIAN
Oh. I was keeping a bit of
distance because I didn't want you to feel like you had to choose between being
married to me and being friends with Blackwood.
TRENT
Because I don't want to have to have
that kind of discussion, where one of us thinks the other is unhappy and it's
never addressed.
FREYA
Why would being friends with my
husband be any part of your guys's marriage?
REBECCA
There were a few bumps in the road...but I think we addressed them, didn't we? (she asked softly)
I
mean...sharing isn't exactly easy for me at times, even now....but I make it
work cause I love you.
SIGYN, 2:00 p.m.
//fucccccc Messenger just started skitzing
out
//just now got it back online
SEBASTIAN
Because his jealousy of me makes
Lucifer uncomfortable and I just figured I should stay out of the way so
Lucifer doesn't feel like he has to choose.
TRENT
That's ridiculous. If he felt like he
had to choose, obviously he would choose our brilliant and adorable Bashie 🥰
SEBASTIAN
He doesn't call me that, but yes.
I just don't want him in that position.
TRENT
I love you too. I don't know what I'd
do without you, or our little bug, or my Bashie.
SIGYN, 2:31 p.m.
I saw that one and died
SEBASTIAN
the other cheerleaders were
constantly annoyed with him for shit like this but I loved it
BEX
// yea messenger has been doing that me for
days now. All of a sudden go crazy with like a million beings when we have
already been chatting. Lol
SIGYN
//no because like I would open it and it
would just close itself and not let me see my messages
BEX
Yea it does that too to me. Even more so if
i wanted to send a vid or pic to you. I'd have to go thru the actual app. Bleh
SIGYN
Fucc
I just got a BB kiss
3:00 p.m.
FREYA
has he told Faustus that? (curious)
like actually sat the man down and said...hey...STOP!
*snickers*
cause my
husband isn't always bright at times and can be very stubborn
BEX
I'm trying to get Rhett to eat so we can go
see Santa. The aquarium is doing a scuba Santa and then a story time.
LUCIFER
Perhaps I should try that, yes.
TRENT
I know I can't stand it when Rebecca
and Sebastian fight, but it's different for Lucifer because he's not seeing
them both
SIGYN
Sounds fun!
TRENT
sounds horrifying
REBECCA
I really don't want to fight with Bash to be honest. (says softly)
it causes unnecessary hardship for us all and
I would like to be able to reach a point where we might actually be...friends..
SEBASTIAN
Give me another 11 years and I'll
think about it (he teases)
(4:15 p.m.) TRENT snuggles up with Sebastian and Luci
I love you both. I don't understand why
you won't get along with her, Sebastian.
NATE
If you're friendly with her, it'll
make it easier on Trent (he says coaxingly)
[SNIP personal parenting discussion]
BEX
(4:51 p.m.) sorry,
speaking of fits...Rhett is having one cause moms mood went downhill. Why
things should cost money this year that didn't last year really upsets me.
SIGYN
The Santa thing cost?
BEX
I was going to take Rhett to see santa
again at the aquarium cause they were doing storytime, and stuff for kids. I
registered on FB and all cause it was in the events pages. We got there, Rhett
was excited...but turns out that it costs money this year to do so and I didn't
have it so when he saw we were leaving, he cried....I still feel terrible...
SIGYN
That's fucked up
They should have announced on the page that
it would cost
[8-minute video chat ending at 5:14
p.m.]
BEX, 5:30 p.m.
Gonna hop in shower really fast now that
ruetts down. Brb
(6:26 p.m.) SEBASTIAN clinging to his boys
SIGYN, 6:50 p.m.
So something fucked up just happened
Loki came in to cuddle and said he will
cuddle me to make me feel better but then implied he is thinking of leaving
because "we are disgusted with each other". I asked if he's disgusted
with me and he said "not really but you're disgusted with me". I
didn't say anything then he said he's going to "make a decision" on
what to do, implying he might leave me (he's done this before) and that he is
losing interest in me. I asked why and he said because I'm losing interest in
him. I said I'm not, I give him hugs and kisses all the time. He said that
means nothing. Then he said again that he's cuddling with me to make me feel
better and that he's going to treat cuddling like I treat sex, like it's
something to appease me but doesn't mean anything to him.
BEX
Wait...WHAT!? 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬
Oh hun, you so don't need that type of
person or attitude in your life. Not if he is going to blame everything on you.
Cuddling to please you?! What type of BS is
that!
SIGYN
He also said that he's stopped making
sexual comments and stopped groping me like.... okay? congrats for average
behavior?
BEX
wh---
I mean...
SIGYN
I don't care if he leaves but I don't want
him to take the baby.
BEX
*brain skitzs out a second*
SIGYN
Bex, I just found out that not 4 but closer
to 8-10 of my friends died within the past few years. I'm still reeling. How am
I going to be in the mood after that.
BEX
I am losing interest in you cause you are
losing interest in me? WHAT THE EVER LOVING FUCK!
SIGYN
Eh, he's trying to guilt me or panic me
into fucking him so he doesn't leave
BEX
I am SOOOOOO disappointed in him right now.
No...disappointed isn't even the word
I can't....I just...UGH! He makes me want
to throw something....
are YOU ok? *hugs*
SIGYN
Agreed, but I'm not displaying emotion
right now because I don't want him using it against me to try to claim I'm an
unfit mother
BEX
I mean, how are you handling this?
SIGYN
I'm upset but I can't react where he can
see it.
[SNIP parenting discussion]
(7:00 p.m.) He's
upset that I'm more attracted to "fictional characters" than I am to
him
BEX
my thoughts stopped again....words...I know
them....so mad....he stupid...!!
SIGYN
Bitch at least Trent is nice
Yeah, he does this every so often. I'm
disappointed. I thought he'd be more stable after we had a baby but he's
lapsing into throwing passive aggressive tantrums when he doesn't get his way.
BEX
Oh boo hoo! The key is in the words, you
moron! (him) FICTIONAL!!!!
I know not to us...but sheesh
SIGYN
I used to have meltdowns over it, but
again, I have to be stable for Lucius.
BEX
Honey, men like that...never grow up. I am
sorry to say so. They never get stable. Ever. Even with a big responsibility
like a child, sure, they'll seem like they will for a few months, but then get
right back in their ways.
you deserve BETTER
and honestly, the whole "Come for a
visit" here thing is still open!
SIGYN
So, okay.
I need to make sure that if he does walk
out, Lucius stays with me. I do not care if Loki is out of the picture, I mean,
I might have to rearrange some things with social security but that's a minor
hassle compared to this attempt at manipulation.
In order to visit, I need to update some documents
with the government and that costs money that I don't currently have, but I am
going to get that ball rolling hopefully not too soon after the beginning of
the year.
BEX
If I can help, let me know. With anything!
SIGYN
I didn't let Loki be part of the pregnancy
because I was afraid of shit like this, honestly, and he did step up when I was
in the hospital. He was fine for a while and now he's being a dick because he's
not getting his wet
I don't actually have a problem with sex as
much anymore, but I am NOT rewarding bad behavior
BEX
have you told him this? Or talked about it
with your therapist?
I totally get you.
SIGYN
I give in "just this once" he's
gonna think he can get me to shag him by threatening to leave.
Haha yes
But he denies that's what he's doing
BEX
but he is though! That's manipulation as
well.
SIGYN
The way my characters argue with your
characters when they want to be annoying? That circular bullshit? That is what
Loki does.
BEX
I'd keep a journal...or try and record
whenever you 'argue' or disagree. That way, if things get really ugly and he
tries to take Lucius, you have proof that says this is what he did, this is
what he said
SIGYN
I have an appointment tomorrow at 2 to
speak with my therapist. I texted her all of this.
Well, that's also why I text you and Piffy
about it. You're on Messenger and she's on Discord.
BEX
screenshots. Hehehe
SIGYN
I have records on two different clients in
that case
BEX
he's being a royal ass, is what he's being.
Ugh!
SIGYN
I agree
BEX
I am sorry hun. I wish i could help more.
SIGYN
Thanks, actually, talking about it is a
huge help!
He's also acting like I get IBS on purpose
to avoid sleeping with him
BEX
what! That's.... *calms and breathes*
SIGYN
🐂💩
BEX
is he really THAT bad? I mean really...
Sure, I will have a serious problem in my
bowels today...lets do that. that sounds like fun!
Baw!
SIGYN
"ugh you're ALWAYS sick"
"Do you have diarrhea EVERY DAY"
"of COURSE you can't today because
your stomach hurts AGAIN"
b i t c h
BEX
Life isn't all about sex!
maybe he should see a therapist for that.
😛
SIGYN
He thinks I should mention to my therapist
that I have sexual dysfunction
...which I don't.
BEX
no, you don't. You can't help it if you
don't feel well.
SIGYN
I am hoping she will ask him if there's
other ways he can feel close to me without sex.
BEX
I just wanna punch him in his big dummie
head! 😛
SIGYN
Same
BEX
hint at that. tell her you want her to ask
that
SIGYN
She probably will. She's asked me, and I
said I'm not the person to ask about that.
NATE
He also thinks he's not a vanilla but
he definitely is.
BEX
Ugh!
I don't know what to say....
SIGYN
yeah I'm not into all the same things my
characters are, but I'm into a LOT of things he isn't.
SEBASTIAN
He's also one of those guys who
won't shut up during. It's annoying.
Moan, cuss, that's fine, but FFS don't
deliver a monologue
BEX
NO!
He mononlogues?
oh god!
TRENT
I guarantee if I told Rebecca about
how good her lady parts felt and the exact things I could feel them doing to my
man bits, for 20 straight minutes, that would be the last time we ever had sex.
SEBASTIAN
oh it's SO awkward, especially
when admin "fades out" and it's Nathaniel or me out... it's like,
"sir I'm a man right now"
SIGYN
He doesn't like buttsecks, which... okay
fine, everyone's mileage varies, NBD
but please I do not want to hear the word
"vagina" a hundred times during sex
I wear earplugs and then he gets offended
because he assumes I'm fantasizing about our boys
NATE
which we are
SIGYN
But still!
He claims he doesn't feel connected to me
but he's not really doing anything to foster a connection. Everything he's
doing is just driving me further away and when I call him on it I get
bullshitted in return. I feel like a bright, thriving rose that's been brought
into a house of dark energy to just wither and die.
BEX
Then you know what you have to do, hun.
It's hard sometimes to take that first step, but for you, as well as for
Lucius, you have to do it. Don't let him do this to you. No withering and dying
aloud!
SIGYN
I'm compiling a list of options, pros,
cons, backup plans, etc in my head and always have been. I'm just annoyed and
venting at the moment
LUCIFER, with Sebastian in his lap, sits
closer to Xander so they can have contact too
SEBASTIAN 🥰
FAUSTUS
We'll never let it get that bad for us.
(speaking of himself/Freya; Trent/Rebecca; etc.)
SIGYN
CUTEcius is in his bed sleeping peacefully
right now. I would take him to my dad's tomorrow but we have therapy at 2,
which I asked for because *waves arms*
BEX
Awww...cutie pie. ♥ ♥ ♥
yea, I still 'arguing' with Rhett atm. lol
Should have been asleep an hur ago.
SIGYN
Bad Rhett omg
BEX
right. bad little danger noodle. Lol
SIGYN
yeah lol
SEBASTIAN
We don't let it get that bad,
ever, but...
SIGYN
(meaning relationships not babies LOL)
(toddlers gonna toddler)
SEBASTIAN shrugs and leaves
SIGYN, 8:21 p.m.
when I hear Danger Noodle I think snake
snakes are adorable
🐍
(8:39 p.m.) [snip something for Rebecca’s
look book from Trent]
(8:53 p.m.) //alright,
I guess we're dropping off here. Sebastian left cause he's sad about Xander; Trent's
going with him tonight 😆 Everyone else will prolly be here tomorrow
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