SIGYN, 12:03 a.m.
Tag!
Yeah so you see what I mean about never
shutting up XD
NI
Hahaha oh I get it believe me.😂
And other times it's like. Well that was
fast. 😂
SIGYN
Oh yeah XD same
(12:23 a.m.) and tag. Short cause... she's
not dumb enough to talk about drugs via text
NI
(12:29 a.m.) Back tag lmfao
Serene gets there. -Just gets attacked by
hellhounds-
Welcome to the IT crowd. 🤣
SIGYN
Oh mean XD
NI
BAHAHAHAHA
Kidding they listen
Mostly 🤣
SIGYN
like, does he want the drugs though?
Oh okay
I was just gonna say
NI
Not to Sigefrid but.... Yeah she'll live I
promise BAHAHAHA
SIGYN
HAHAHAHA
(12:32 a.m.) Tag
HAHAHHAA THAT ANSWER THOUGH
NI
...... I'm dying 😂
You could..... But please don't 😂
SIGYN
She's not asking about fashion XD
You'll see
NI
Oh he's FULLY AWARE
That's exactly what he means whether it
came across or not 😂
Unless she means something other than the
first thing that would cross a normal person's mind 😂
SIGYN
Unless she means something other than the
first thing that would cross a normal person's mind 😂
I'm not a normal person so I don't know
NI
Bahahaha I mean me neither I guess.... Then
again neither are my muses so 😂
SIGYN
Alright, tag. I'm one of those
"everyone cares what Enoby was wearing!" types XD
She meant, "would you be more
comfortable to meet me in drag or out?"
NI
Yup! That's what we got lol 🤣
SIGYN
The picture I posted is what she's wearing,
only bright teal eyes, much curlier hair, and silver slingback heels (that
aren't mentioned cause I forgot) XD
"show up naked if you want, except
don't"
"Uhhh... so I'll just meet... in...
drag, then."
NI
You're gonna make me miss my stylist with
your fun visuals 🤣
I'd probably have way more if I had one but
meh lol
And omfg right!? 🤣😂🤣
Basically
BAHAHA
[small snip]
SIGYN
becaaauuuuse I have no binder
NI
Use duck tape
JK DON'T
SIGYN
WTF NO
Hahahahahah
NI
AHAHAHAHAHA hey beggers can't be choosers
OKAY
SIGYN
I used to use bandages but that's a bad
idea too
NI
I totally haven't
Oh those things suck dildo
SIGYN
Sports bras make my back hurt but uh, I'm
hoping if I drop some extra subcutaneous lipidinous tissue, my chest will also
deflate
NI
I feel that..
All of that actually
Probably why my migraine hit actually.
Three sizes to small and sports bra is my level of stupidity sometimes
SIGYN
YEP
Started seeing a chiropractor after I had
Lucius and it's like
"you should probably get a
reduction"
bruh I'm pumping
Oof, I'm sorry
NI
Heeellll NO! This is totally not why we did
formula
SIGYN
We mixed. Half milk, half formula :3
NI
Though idk whether you're doing it for drag
or what not but ... Yeah pregnancy was one thing. I was done once she was out
SIGYN
Well, I'm bigender, but sometimes I prefer
to be a little more masc and most of my cosplay characters are male
Other times I'm like HEY WORLD, LOOK AT
THEEEESE
NI
SIGYN
I've gotten discounts at conventions
dressed as a female character strictly for being "cute", which means
chubby chesticles and short skirt lmao
NI
I'm Bigender to
SIGYN
FUCK YEAH
TWINSIES
NI
I'm actually like wtf it IS a real thing 🤣
SIGYN
YES
NI
Jkjk but I've never actually met anyone
else the same before
SIGYN
I thought I was
genderfluid-but-a-little-to-the-left
But then I read about Tiresias
and I was like "YES. I'M THAT.
WHATEVER THAT IS. IM GOOD AS BOTH OR EITHER"
And my sibling was like
"bigender?"
and I'm like YES
(1:00 a.m.)
NI
I was on T for a year back in confusion
days ahahaha
But yeah I feel you there. Feel like alot
of people just look at me like wait.... What's Bigender
Because it's one of the more rare ones
Feels like I just said "I identify as
a helicopter on Tuesdays"
ROFLMAO
SIGYN
RIGHT?
I considered transitioning because
ok so I also have DID and I had one
particularly powerful male alter, when I was 19, and people liked him a lot
better so I was like "ok whatever you can have my life"
but I'm knife shy and I had had bad
experiences with therapy so I just swallowed it
NI
Well if it makes you feel any better.
There's some of us who only had minor personality disorder diagnosis and yeah.
I can say my male side was WAY more around back then. So I was just like OK
COOL
Then suddenly it was like. Wait a second.
No... Now I'm fine. WTH?! And I had all kinds of people so confused showing up
at the tattoo shop I worked at having to explain it all to my trainer and
coworker only for it to backfire yet again.
God it was so awful. 🤦♀️
SIGYN
Yikes, I'm so sorry
NI
Anywho but I feel you. I haven't had to Bind
AS much for a few years compared to back then. Lol
SIGYN
Straight up, I have borderline personality
disorder and, while I am in treatment, my characters oftentimes have my
symptoms and shitty coping mechanisms
and one of them is kind of an alter but a
little to the left
like, I occasionally lose time, and they
write in my diary, but it's not like we'll be on messenger and SUDDENLY
DIFFERENT PERSONALITY
Re: trial thing: OH BUT DOES
Sigefrid knows Serena's married to
Luci/Lucifer, so the second Sebastian introduces himself as, "Sebastian
Morningstar for the defense, your honor," he gon be like "...SON OF A
BITCH!"
'cause Serena does have a higher vocal
register than Sebastian, but once you see or hear the similarities, you can't
un-know it.
okay yeah I really like that for a reveal,
actually.
NI
(1:32 a.m.) Tag
SIGYN
Huzzah!
NI
No I don't think anything that personal has
come up for either of them lol
SIGYN
She's mentioned her husband at least once,
I'm not sure if by name tho
NI
Well..... Yeah we'll go with blame the
drugs because it went over our head by a good foot at least
-DEAD-
Wouldn't shock me
ROFLMAO
SIGYN
oh good okay
like, as long as there's a plausible
excuse, I'll roll with anything.
NI
AHAHAHAHA
SIGYN
Bex hasn't seen all of Crazy Ex-Girlfriend,
and sometimes she kinda roleplays as herself instead of as the characters from
that canon, and I'll catch her and point it out as Trent cause he's a stalker,
and she'll go like "oh, my tastes changed" or "I thought that at
first but now I think this", and it's a lot of fun
PENRYN
Yeah, we don’t think it’s fun anymore.
NI
Oh dude Sigefrid's very unobservant
sometimes and stuff really does go in one ear and out the other or fly right
over his ass. 🤣
Plus yeah, part of it is literally he's
always been on the panic around her and high as shit soooo LMFAO
Oh god... I... It irritates me when people
do that I think we've talked. 🤣
I'll Channel a muse that might have
something similar I want to use sometimes. Close as it gets
SIGYN
Yeah
Like, I know YOUR favorite color is green,
but GEORGE wears mostly pink!
or things like that
NI
AHAHAHAHAHA yup that crap irritates me
endlessly lol
SIGYN
or "I don't like dresses," says
the girl who canonically ONLY wears dresses for the first two and a half
seasons
Yeahhh
NI
........... NOPE 🤣
SIGYN
I am patient outwardly because literate
writers are rare, but it does grate sometimes
and I'm obsessive IRL so I stick with
obsessive characters
and characters who are super analytical and
likely to call that shit out
Also "well ALL of my characters are
XYZ" yes but this one is canonically ABC and the other one is MNO
it shows a lack of range tbh
NI
That sounds like me and my wallowing
depression. 🤣
HOWEVER it shows itself very differently by
character to.
Like Sigefrid drowns his in drinking and
pain meds and pussy. Doesn't actually flaunt it to just anyone.
Erik will just shut down anywhere really.
Goes all spacey. Also tends to have some scaring no one knows where that came
from 🙄
Dagfinn drowns it like Sigefrid but
OBSESSIVELY and does heavier shit to like Heroin. Usually the guy who tries to
get a chick but can't get his dick up at the end of the night and they both end
up high sleeping in a trash trailer lmfao
And on and on and on down the list. Lol
Sooooo moral of the story I get it. We all
have our character TYPES that's for sure
SIGYN
Yeah for sure!
And we all put a LITTLE of ourselves into
our characters
But RPing the same damn person over and
over and over and over
Having the same image songs for every
pairing because YOU love the song so much
It's uncreative. I don't like it.
NI
..... Oh look one of my friends is having a
tantrum. Because I missed their reply an hour ago and they didn't boop me 🙄
Gotta LOVE ooc BULL
SIGYN
oh fuccccc
NI
And omfg.... Yeah I agree. Makes me cackle
cause I know to many who do that shit
SIGYN
bruh I get sulky, like, I'm super clingy
and needy, but it manifests as mostly "ping, ping,
pingpingPINGPINGPING"
followed by "I'm sad now"
NI
Funny thing is I had a feeling they were
posting a bitch status. Because I spent two days sleeping and doing banter and
all they did was bitch.
SIGYN
People who are just passive aggressive are
like blech
NI
One or two hrs maybe and they're bitching
whatya know
Yeah I'm tired of it TBH
SIGYN
Yepppp, valid
NI
Oh oh OR it's because I wasn't feeling a
muse this evening so I haven't replied at all to one thread.
Aawww poor baby. Let me cry
SIGYN
Or like "you haven't responded me in
three days, I know you said you had the flu/were visiting your friend in
rehab/had to take your baby to the ER but if you REALLY CARED ABOUT ME"
NI
JK what a whiney cunt
Noooo it's them. Wow make me feel great
AHAHAHAHA
I've spoken to him plenty
It's the replying he's gotten bitch fit over.
SIGYN
like, Bex and I
she was unavailable for a while, ok, and my
characters fought to hell with hers when she got back
BUT I stated clearly within the fight that
I, the admin, do not resent her, the admin. But IC actions/lack of actions = IC
consequences, so my characters are going to go off and fuck around
And then they gonna find out
Nathaniel is catching heat from George for
fucking Lucifer, for example
NI
Yeah this person doesn't do that. He's honestly HARD to
work with at times. And I don't think he gets......
Even if it isn't about me
I've ignored for DAYS every time I see this
kind of status
But I know it's me because I know what I am
and am not guilty of and this status is ALL about people not replying to roles
and claiming he doesn't
feel like a priority.
AKA.... I think he's joined the crew of mad
you and Becca exist officially
SIGYN
(1:54 a.m.) Tag
I mean, I get it? sometimes I see you and
Bex RPing and she hasn't replied to a thing we have going, so I'll just
casually pester her, and then I'll sulk after a bit, but also, like,
communication is vital. If I can see that, oh actually that response was from
four hours ago, long before she logged off, yeah it's all good. Or if I see her
say "I'm only good for banter" or "these muses aren't
awake", then I get it
But being a dick to someone who isn't
available at the moment isn't incentivizing
NI
Yeah exactly. And soooo many people just
DON'T.
Communication hath left the building!!
(2:00 a.m.)
SIGYN
Sometimes I'll send like 9861613851 texts
and then like eight hours later I'll get "sorry hun I was _________"
and then I immediately feel better like oh okay then
Manure occurs
NI
Omfg I have friends that do that to me.
I've just tuned the world out plenty before. Like click I may message every few
but otherwise I'm on cloud nine 🤣
So I'm the one getting those texts AHAHA
SIGYN
Yeahhh I've been on that side of it too
NI
Also -Acts petty for a second-
He's
posted he
was redoing his account
three times in two weeks ROFL
SIGYN
I do try to tell people what's up, but
like, some people are ... Okay so some people are naturally just needy, and
that's cool, but some people are toxic about it
NI
Trashing everyone's muses and ships only to
never do that 🤣
I'm actually laughing
Cool less to reply to we're gonna do this
again foo
SIGYN
Omg I just cut ties with someone who
threatened to kill all his muses and himself at least once a day
NI
Omfg ok thankfully he isn't that bad
But he does do this kind of shit soooo much
SIGYN
So people who are like THAT, like "oh
if you REALLY cared you'd talk to me but you CLEARLY DON'T", I mute them
and ghost the account, hop on an alternate where they're not added, and talk to
my friends
NI
Omfg no kidding....
I have wished such things but.....
I'm a natural doormat 🤣
SIGYN
come back a week later
"um, I just had a BABY."
like, I only have the one kid, and he was
born in 2020, but not everyone knows that
Oh bruh I used to be a doormat, so I feel
you. Wanting to please everyone and not having boundaries takes a real toll.
NI
It really does. Lol funny how that's what
this persons claiming they're doing 🙄
Like uh huh surrre. So you can ignore me
and when I get a couple new friends and it's not ALL about you ALL the time.
Well.... Now we have issues.
Yeah I saw this coming ten miles away tbh.
Actually I got a message from someone else yesterday who whined and said
"You have a new best friend"
Wtf are y'all teenagers? That one hadn't
been active in DAYS
SIGYN
Dude I get jealous of my WPs other WPs all
the fucking time. It happens, whatever. But what I don't do is...that
like I figured "oh she's writing with
this person. Maybe they're cool. Perhaps I, too, can have the pleasure of
writing with them."
also it's your turn on the uhhh drugs
I'm like the "HELLO PARTY PEOPLE! I
was jealous for a second but NOW I'm MAKING NEW FRIENDS" kind of obnoxious
instead XD
NI
(2:22 a.m.) Tag
SIGYN
Yay!
NI
Omfg yeah see also why I liked you pretty
quickly. Most don't do that. They just see a new person and instantly go
"Mmmmeeeeeerrrhhh"
Like how actually let's see.
One girls vanished sense Becca appeared.
Another has like I said. Messaged bitching.
And now this guy's gone bitch rant whiney emo stupid
three times.
And I get it to. I think we all have been
there. But A. It's just part of rp honestly. And B. Doesn't mean you should
sabotage your friendship over it by being manipulative or dramatic or anything
of that nature
SIGYN
Oh DUDE
I've been friends with Bex for years, like,
she tried to talk me thru some shady shit my husband did in 2016 (we got
better), but we didn't start writing together earnestly until last summer. I
knew she was a hopeless romantic who feels the same way about ✨ misunderstood stalkers✨ as I do and approached her about
Trent, and we came up with a storyline that has gotten steadily more
convoluted. We used to write HOURS every day and then we started watching CXGF
together, and then this autumn/winter shit started going down IRL and we had to
cut back, and then I see you and I'm like "HEY COOL! NEW PERSON! VIKING
NAME!!! ADD!"
...after like five seconds of being like
"wah, new person :'( what about me? :'( " but privately
NI
YUP!!! I've been there. Totally understand.
🤣
SIGYN
And the thing is, Trent and Bash are
friends with Elf Becca. Not as close with her as with the CXGF characters, CAOS
characters, and Xander, but close enough that Serena didn't immediately
physically attack Rheagal
So it's not a big deal if some muses are
asleep and others are awake
NI
Yeah that was fun. I like that we can pop
on a thread and no one's asshurt in the process to. That's a rarity tbh
I haven't been able to do that in ages and
as I'm sure you've noticed....
None of my friends do that shit at ALL
SIGYN
oh nohhh
Yeah like me, as a person? Completely chill
with Bex going "owo what's this" at the Serena and Sigefrid YouTube
thread. Serena? WHOLLY INFURIATED!! BOUTTA SHOW THESE BITCHES FANTASTIC HANDS
AND WHERE TO CATCH THEM
PENRYN
In hindsight, Bex butting into that thread out of jealousy wasn’t
cool, though.
NI
I know that was hilarious. 🤣
Fantastic hands and where to catch them
omfg 🤣
SIGYN
but like if I need someone to perform a
stop-it, I'll PM them and go "hey I'd actually really like for this to be
between just A and B"
PENRYN
Which we should have done.
NI
To perform a stop it AHAHAHAHA
I'm sorry the way you phrased that. 🤣
SIGYN
or if they want to be a part of it or don't
like what's going down as a person, we can work out which character can
successfully end it. Like, if Xander showed up and said, "Serena, come
away from him. I want to feed and I want you to myself right now," that
would be 100% effective.
but Rheagal showing up and moralizing at
her was the opposite of that 🤣🤣🤣🤣
NI
I have those exits myself honestly. 🤣
LIKE ERIK BAHAHAHA
SIGYN
Got that from a friend who's a horror
novelist who does funny phrases! 😃
Oh yeah! Erik actually being nice was what
got Serena to finally go away
... temporarily, but still
NI
"Imma talk to him it's ok!"
-Doesn’t but it worked-
That's Erik's card. He's good at breaking
up ANYTHING 🤣
Granted sometimes it's not pleasant but
....
ROFL one time Sigefrid literally chewed his
neck to pieces 😂
SIGYN
(2:38 a.m.) Tagggg
If Serena found out Erik didn't actually
talk to him, she'd be ...well, she's already heartbroken and insane
but yeah at least Erik isn't yelling at her
for being immoral
NI
I mean he DID
Might not have necessarily liked what he
had to say. 😂
SIGYN
Trent pointed out earlier, to CXGF Rebecca,
that she has no reason to care what Sebastian does to some stranger and that
she should be siding with Trent & friend over that rando
and then all hell broke loose
Oh wait actually, the fight started with
Xander moralizing at Sebastian for stabbing someone, and Sebastian being like,
"Hey, you're supposed to care about how I feel! I'm your human, not
anyone else!"
And then Rebecca and Cat started dogpiling
Sebastian, and then Trent told them to shut the fuck up
Like, it's rare for Trent to side against
Rebecca, and Canon Trent probably would be confused at most, but my Trent has
been best friends with Sebastian since 2nd grade and best believe Bros before
Hos
NI
(2:46 a.m.) Tag
That's funny. All Sigefrid does is tell
everyone Serene is a pest. 🤣
But it's ok I think everyone's gathering
he's a fucking liar over half the time about shit AHAHAHA
SIGYN
Bruh let me show you this cause it's a
fuckin doozy
I hope they all send in the correct order
PENRYN
Yeah, Bex needs to correct the mathematical error of her existence. Fuck that entire insensitive, ableist, bullshit sock puppet argument.
(3:00 a.m.)
SIGYN
TAG!
NI
(3:36 a.m.) Is it working NOW?
YAAAAYY
SIGYN
Zah!
NI
JEEZ
Wtf that was so dumb
SIGYN
Hehe tag
NI
Wwoow deleted my message wtf
Anywho forgot if I asked if you told me if
you read the bios there before or not
Or if I even asked
It's more currently related to what we're
doing so you'd probably get a kick out of it if not lol
SIGYN
oh fucc. I read some but I can't keep em
straight
NI
AHAHAHA yeah this isn't the big ones
This is contemporary specific stuff
Like I know you saw some of the Mayans but
Sigefrid, Skorpa, Bloodhair
They're all in there to. 🤣
SIGYN
HAHAHA HE'S AFRAID OF DEMONS AND the person
stalking him is the devil's spouse
NI
ROFL yeaaaaaa don't get me started
🤣
SIGYN
Oh no please do
NI
ROFL!!! Ever seen a werewolf biker shit his
pants? There's a first for everything.😂
SIGYN
🤣
What happened omg
NI
Sooooo much
He and Bolton are very permanently scarred
as of recently actually
We don't talk about sister Mary 👌
Or her demon friends 😂
SIGYN
oh noooooo
I mean, Sebastian works with a demon,
Maze, but she's super mild probably compared with that
NI
//Prepare to meet the admins vocal chords I
am NOT typing this one. 😂
Pssst that wasn't the bottle he grabbed 🙄😂
My bad early morning brain I shoulda been
more specific AHAHA
SIGYN
Oh I know which bottle you said he grabbed
but I also know which bottle was out of her purse and it wasn't the pill bottle
XD
NI
God damnit was that me.... Fuck I have
early morning brain
(4:00 a.m.)
SIGYN
Bahahahaha
bruh it's 4 am here and I haven't slept so
I feel ya
NI
Fine I guess we're bitching then 🤣
Jkjk
And yo... It's six here
SIGYN
I usually finally get to sleep right around
the time the baby wakes up and then I sleep till noon and then Loki and the
baby come and wake me up and like I wake up to a baby crawling on me and making
noise and trying to steal stuff from on top of my mini fridge
Loki is IRL husband's name
he got a kick out of it when I was RPing
earlier and was like "I swear to Loki"
He was like "wait what"
"oh Sebastian's talking to a
Viking"
"Wow ok"
NI
Sounds like my morning
And OMFG!! That's great!!!
Tag btw oops he did decide to complain 😂
SIGYN
I'm still figuring out the possibilities
and limits to her angel feather, like, it keeps her disease-free and alive,
and it can heal others' injuries on contact. The angel she got it from, in his
verse, is self-actualizing, which means it basically works depending on her
desires, like, if she fully gave up on living, it would no longer protect her.
But on the other hand, while I do like having a functionally invincible OC
(who was totally already a Sue to begin with), I don't want to infringe on anything
that's necessary for plot or characterization re other people's characters
so while she does carry a piece of
divinity that is easily accessible, I am tempted to offer to heal things for
others, but I feel like the reason it worked for Sigefrid that one time was
because
1) she was healing a wound she had
inflicted
2) she has feelings for him and a desire to
heal him, and
3) she truly wanted to make it up to him
for stabbing him.
so it might not work for Joe Schmoe
but on the OTHER hand, I was kind of
curious, like, if she slept next to him and he, at any point, touched her back
skin to skin, would it ease his pain for a while? but on the other other
hand, I don't wanna overstep things that make up his characterization, and
having someone literally become addicted to being close to her would probably
end very badly XD
NI
Hmmm you have some VERY good thoughts. And
I certainly like it. I was actually already thinking it over in my head to some
degree just not that angle so I'm glad you've come up with some explanation for
things. Lol
I feel like that's certainly a good idea.
And not TO bad of an addiction to work with because when compared to what he's
taking let's not kid ourselves. He's hurting..... But not just physically. He
wouldn't become addicted in the same sense to her.
However I can DEFINITELY see him getting
very attached if that eventually happens.
What you do is also have her play it off
and keep it covered up on purpose so that doesn't happen immediately. Unless I
mean.... She wants to use it to lure him in as well.
Can you tell I'm conflicted to? 🤣
Really I feel like it boils down to wtf
would SHE do? Because him I can certainly tell you. 🤣
SIGYN
Well, she didn't realize he was a chronic
pain patient when she asked him to let her heal his shoulder. But if she had realized it, she absolutely would have capitalized on it.
"you're missing a hand. I have a
literal piece of divinity gifted to me by an angel, who may or may not be in
love with me, embedded over a large area of my skin."
It's hard to see, but if you zoom and scroll,
NI
Yeah see THAT is a hard one to play with.
And believe me even I've had to. Like in all the different timelines even just
figuring out what to do is hard then add in he's a Were in some. Now you've got
me like .... It was this kind of weapon and this why it never healed etc
It's FUN lol
Oooo ok I see it
Also woah yeah I definitely can't paint and
certainly not people so be proud 🤣
SIGYN
Yeah! Like I mean, I'm collaborative, and I
hate it when someone's just like "hey my chara just healed your chara
because SURPRISE! IT'S A SUE!"
The person behind Sebastian is Trent, also
XD
and I figured with you doing multiple
timelines, trying to outright regrow a hand would fuck some shit up
but taking away the physical discomfort,
and doing it temporarily so that he has to be at least nearby her for it to
take effect? not too hard to swing
OHOHOH BUT ALSO
Lucifer is an angel of desire, so not
only does the feather self-actualize based on Serena's subconscious wish to
stay alive and well, BUT it could also have the ability to bring to the surface
hidden desires in others. With an addict, that desire is usually "take the
pain away"
"feel better"
and for a male addict who uses sex as a
coping mechanism... WELLLLL
Sebastian DEFINITELY does that, and for
him, it manifests as
- preternatural sex appeal
- always tight ;)
- and, he's an exclusive bottom (except for that one month with Trent), but IF HE WASN'T, it would help in that arena too
but okay so for a "friend" who is
merely touching the feather of the angel who brings out others' desires, would
it be like "I want to feel better. Boom, I feel better! Yay! ...but only
as long as she's within this sort of radius",
Or would it be like "I really didn't
want to admit it but I WANT TO FUCK! NOW!"
NI
Yikes hmmm that's a hard one
Reminds me of that one Jennifer Lopez video
all the guys are chasing her 🤣
(5:00 a.m.)
SIGYN
oh cringe XD
also tag
whether or not she's flirting depends
entirely on his mood. Schrödinger's flirting, if you will. Also, does she mean
"visit the club" often, or does she mean "have sex on this
couch" often? IT'S A SURPRISE! :D
Part 2 will be the afternoon and night.
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